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| Dear diary,
My emotions seem to be pulling the strings of my decision-making and judgments in the last couple of weeks.
I have been feeling nothing but twitchy, sensitive, and apprehensive.
Yes.
I am fearful.
Fearful of these false alarms, and inaccurate encouragements.
Terrified as these enticement are slowly precipitating into unwise anticipation.
Once again, I am stuck between my emotional conflict and moral dilemma.
Decisions decisions decisions.
Oh, they are not easy to make.
Frankly, I do know what will be the right choice to make.
What will be... technically right to be expected out of me.
Not easy, yet not simple either.
Nothing challenging, nor demanding here.
But, it ain't free of complications either.
To me, at least.
Once again, I feel betrayed.
Not only by Her, but by my own feelings.
Once again, I feel disappointed.
Not only by Him, but by my own betrayal.
Wake up Cyndi, and smell the coffee.
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| Dear diary,
Will you just indulge me?
I promise I will be grateful.
Love, Cyn*
Currently listening to Love, Sex, Magic.
Currently craving to go out.
Currently need sleep.
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| Dear diary,
Haku-chan's birthday involved catching up with old friends, meeting his family friends, and after party drinks at MOS.
I arrived just in time for his birthday candle blow-out + picture time.
Lucky me.
Nyah on the other hand had to park the car. 
Haha.
Oh oh and he brought me go-karting!
I went the slowest but i'm proud of myself!
I didn't hit any barriers and managed to avoid Teh's spinning kart!! 
Leona is crazily good, but what else to expect from a professional drifter?
I wonder when will I ever be as cool as her.
Probably never.
I have been reading Twilight lately.
I relate myself fairly well to Bella Swan; her clumsiness, how she dreads gym classes and her relationship with Edward Cullen.
Though, unlike her I usually opt for the safer choice, and i am more of an extrovert and less of an anti-social.
K. Going too much into the details.
Nyah's drinking over a poker game, Wei's probably being naughty in China, and Kor should be out entertaining his Hongkie friend.
I miss them, already.
Why the insecurity? I wouldn't know.
Love, Cyn*
Should really start sleeping earlier - skin's getting rougher by the day!
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Are some things better off unspoken?
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